lady antebellum is playing in the background,
“i need you know”
It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn’t call but I’ve lost all control and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without.
I just need you now.
its now a quarter after two….
“let me love you” i hear whispers,
i look around i hope i will see his face,
see that smile, that deceived me much…
“let me love you” these words are so close,
i turn around, no one around, just an empty office,
the voice sounds louder every second i hear it,
its probably a corrupt link that am listening to…
or maybe someone changed my playlist…
the thing with me… my mind drifts many times if not all times, and today it has been drifting a lot, i’d have sworn that i was in a happy place, a forest perhaps on the corridors of an empty castle,and my imagination would be the voices in my head, that i was holding perfection.
i was actually listening to Neyo’s song.”see what the voices do to me”
Much as you blame yourself, you can’t be blamed for the way that you feel
Had no example of a love that was even remotely real
How can you understand something that you never had?
Ooh, baby, if you let me, I can help you out with all of that
Girl let me love you
my thoughts are clouded, they are sad,
my body aches, aches from all the turmoil,
i cringe, am crippled(with fear),
i go back, a few months back,
when i worried a bit less… okay years back…
i try to fight the tears in my eyes,
i try to swallow the hot saliva in my mouth,
am trying so hard to forget that today exists,
or that yesterday existed as well.
or that that a month ago was two months ago,
and that all was….
someone enters the office, i pretend its some sad movie that i am watching, and that it is making me all sorts of emotional. maybe after all they were right i am an emotional human, and i find solace in my words, they cry on my behalf.
All is said for the greater good
But good don’t last now like it should
I know no thing about my life
I’ve been in it, but told to be silent
Only now can my thoughts be loudest,
Forget love, a word that takes it all.
“let me love you”
there goes the sound again, not from the speakers or so,
its a voice in my head, so loud it hurts.
” i will teach you to love, i will teach you to be patient
i will teach you to smile, to laugh when you look at me”
the voices in my head!!!
“let me love you”
could it be, the world has seen?
seen the much hate in me?
seen how fragmented my soul is?
seen me running away, destroying that…
that that could teach me love?