it’s never that long

it has been a while,

a while since i was her,

the replica of she….

she that made me live in the past,

she that made me torment my being,

she that that that that…….

it has been a while,

last i remember…

i cant even remember,

i don’t want to remember,

i don’t miss remembering…..

it has been a while,

a while since i last saw him,

my nightmare ,

or is it my fake fantasy,

a he that was never there,

a he that aimed to destroy,

a he that maimed

and planned to pain……..

it has been a while,

a while since i last cried..

cried because my eyes felt dirty

or i think my heart was not at peace

or my emotions were bruised,

or my heart was bleeding,

or or or or………………..

it has been a while,

a while since i enjoyed my bottle,

when i allowed it to be my companion..

let it comfort me,

when the days never ended,

when the sun would never set,

when all was amiss

when when when………………..

it has been a while,

a while since i let my demons embrace me.

i don’t regret it though..

i will never regret,

they are gone,

no i am past that,

yes beyond them………..

i know it will be a while,

a while for me to miss you,

and i am happy about it

cause you are now my past…..

a past that taught,

a past that i am thankful for………………..

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